Monday, August 16, 2010
DISCLAIMER: I'm about to wallow - be warned!
It's been a really tough few days. The money we've been waiting on (and BANKING on, really) from the IRS hasn't come, and the bad news is that it may not come at all! I spent the day dealing with debtors that I have become delinquent with due to our financial situation just being too tight for everything to get paid. I'm not really sure why I bothered. After having a friend who works in collections tell me that I should at least make the effort to call them, and that maybe they could do something for me, I find myself no better off than I was this morning and, quite frankly, feeling quite a bit worse. So, this is the good it does to try and take responsibility for your debts. I know...woe is me and all that! I swear I'm not this emo all the time, mostly because I just don't have the time for it anymore. I've never been one to deal well with stress, I won't lie about that, and financial stress just runs me right to the edge of what I can handle and threatens to throw me over the side! I suppose it's just incredibly disheartening because I've put too much expectation into what all I was going to be able to take care of with this tax refund. I guess that's why folks tell you not to ever count on money that you don't currently have IN HAND! It's just been a long, hard, drawn-out, no end in sight FIGHT with the IRS from the moment we filed this year! I'm hoping that we'll still see at least some of that refund, but I can tell you that we're not going to get a single red cent without fighting for it! And so ... I guess I'll be putting on my boxing gloves and heading on downtown here in the next couple of days. Meanwhile, I don't think I'll spend anymore time trying to throw myself in front of the runaway horse! There, now I feel better.